Almost a year ago I found myself at a crossroad, although I seemed completely healed I knew that I needed some time.
Time to heal my heart from my daughter's death and time to heal my brain from my cerebral hemorrhage. When my daughter died I felt numb and to feel something I threw myself into my work thinking that it would get better if I kept myself busy and pretended to be ok. Well I was wrong. Then when I had my hemorrhage the doctors told my wife to call the family because I was going to die that night.
You know its funny how sometimes words that are so negative can turn out so positive. Those words are what gave me the strength to fight. How the hell could I die after what just happened with my daughter? What would happen to my family? I was not about to put my family through 2 deaths in a span of 4 months. My daughter was always on my mind but my focus now had to be healing myself so that I wouldn't cause my family any more pain than they already had. I could barely walk and my speech was just as bad, but somehow I had to appear strong and normal for my family.
It was a 2 and a half year struggle to act as if my brain was thinking properly, when in fact, it was a tangled mess. I pulled it off really well, everybody thought I was just fine, but the reality was that I had to fight for every thought. I finally reached a point where I couldn't hold it together any more. I would find myself crying when I would talk about my daughter and this is when I knew I had to pull back and heal. I had already been working on Smile and a Wave Day for a little while, but I knew that it could be bigger than just me running around getting people to sign a petition to get it put on the calendar.
So I pulled back to fix a broken me. To give myself the time I never took to heal my heart. As I held the intention to heal, I also held the intention to revamp myself into someone that would really make a difference in the world. I was tired of being the guy that had great intentions, but, didn't know what to do with them. Pulling back was the best thing I could have ever done. My heart still aches for my daughter but I am better able to channel it into something positive and as far as my intention to revamp myself into someone who will make a difference in the world I will let my website do the talking for me. Sometimes when you're in the middle of a battle you just need to pull back and heal in order to win, because if you don't and just continue the fight you get tired and give up. My motto is never give up, never surrender
Here is my new website address, please visit it; I would love to know what your feed back is, so be sure to let me know! http://www.smileandwaveamerica.com
Download your free Happiness Contract when you visit the website!
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Time to heal my heart from my daughter's death and time to heal my brain from my cerebral hemorrhage. When my daughter died I felt numb and to feel something I threw myself into my work thinking that it would get better if I kept myself busy and pretended to be ok. Well I was wrong. Then when I had my hemorrhage the doctors told my wife to call the family because I was going to die that night.
You know its funny how sometimes words that are so negative can turn out so positive. Those words are what gave me the strength to fight. How the hell could I die after what just happened with my daughter? What would happen to my family? I was not about to put my family through 2 deaths in a span of 4 months. My daughter was always on my mind but my focus now had to be healing myself so that I wouldn't cause my family any more pain than they already had. I could barely walk and my speech was just as bad, but somehow I had to appear strong and normal for my family.
It was a 2 and a half year struggle to act as if my brain was thinking properly, when in fact, it was a tangled mess. I pulled it off really well, everybody thought I was just fine, but the reality was that I had to fight for every thought. I finally reached a point where I couldn't hold it together any more. I would find myself crying when I would talk about my daughter and this is when I knew I had to pull back and heal. I had already been working on Smile and a Wave Day for a little while, but I knew that it could be bigger than just me running around getting people to sign a petition to get it put on the calendar.
So I pulled back to fix a broken me. To give myself the time I never took to heal my heart. As I held the intention to heal, I also held the intention to revamp myself into someone that would really make a difference in the world. I was tired of being the guy that had great intentions, but, didn't know what to do with them. Pulling back was the best thing I could have ever done. My heart still aches for my daughter but I am better able to channel it into something positive and as far as my intention to revamp myself into someone who will make a difference in the world I will let my website do the talking for me. Sometimes when you're in the middle of a battle you just need to pull back and heal in order to win, because if you don't and just continue the fight you get tired and give up. My motto is never give up, never surrender
Here is my new website address, please visit it; I would love to know what your feed back is, so be sure to let me know! http://www.smileandwaveamerica.com
Download your free Happiness Contract when you visit the website!
Have an idea.
E-mail it to us and if we use it we will be sure to include you in our features story.
eddy@smileandwaveamerica.com
If you like what you read here, please forward it to those you care about.
Together we can change our world.
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